Lock the Holmes

No words can fulfill every energy, electricity and motions in my body and mind at this day.

Things were completely ENORMOUS here.

It was the usual birthday-celebration treat for us both.

It was his second friendly Birthday celebration year with me.

I told myself to give it a try, anyway it was a deal movie for this year, and besides it was his BIRTHDAY.

I told myself to take things easy, to manage my thoughts well and get on my feet fairly.

I told myself to hold back any emotional outbreak that may lead to the past.

And lastly, I told myself that I will do this just because I will be leaving soon.

And that things will never be complicated on his life anymore.

At the end of the day, I was wrong.
I was completely compelled and may be drunk-ed by my mere illusions.
I was again, mesmerize of his being and his other side.
Leading my blood and veins to explode.
And holding back went difficult, unsustainable.
I just convince myself that "just this night, just this night".
And tomorrow will mean usual and common again.

The next day, I wake up realizing I was completely bound in recognizing my torn-ed feelings over him again.