The silly ways

It was during this month when everything got a "little" serious.
The days went crazy, ill-minded and impulsive.
It was during this lucky month that everything else changed.

Legends:
♥ - first time
☆ - level of misunderstanding


Let's discuss:
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Feb 13 :  We were suppose to have lunch together this day, but then I happen to realize a lot of things circling the word "us". That lead me to skip the morning part of my work and eventually lead me to skip the whole day just thinking. I didn't text him much during the morning and not a single text during the after, at night time I messaged him like nothing happened. He replied that made him sound a little pissed off so I called him to actually know how he sounds like when pissed off. I laughed so much while hearing it because I was happy. Happy that he cares. So much. But then during the conversation he told me "kelan ka alis? (I said monday) sana mapaaga na lang para di na mo na ko maiinis ng ganito", that was like "WHOA!!" to me. And then we just text each other and this day was actually the first time he said he love me in text even if he was mad at me.

Feb 14 : We ruined are usual Vday-not-celebrating year. I don't know what changed his mind, but we surely went out this day. Even twice this day. Lunch out until almost past 1pm and then night time. It was a heart to heart talk night in front of the ice. It was the first time. It was really unusual. We faced the facts and stop concluding. I felt the spark by the way. Then ending the night with a seal and the 3 words from him. It was the first time in person. It's been a month and a day since the last, it was quick, but I just wanted to feel it on my own for a minute or two when we parted. It felt good. It felt so real. It was really one of a Heart's day.

Feb 16 : The unending and unstoppable happiness I was.

Feb 17 : The epic kiss before the elevators open. Great!

T-U-E-S-D-A-T-E

It was just going to be a normal Tuesday when out of nowhere he asked me out.

A kinda boring movie yet happened to be extra special because of him.
We played the no-talking game because of his sore throat and voiceless words.
Then the toss coin game for which movie and which fast food to eat on.
Then after the movie we had the normal chit chatting at the back of the mall.
Damn my day was complete.

   So pretty.

Serenade

              "Mundo'y ating iwanan, maari lang sana, dto nlng tau.. "

                      

Love is patient and kind. 
Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. 
It does not demand its own way. 
It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 
It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance ... love will last forever!

We should have been here early, so that he could have appreciate this view.

Lock the Holmes

No words can fulfill every energy, electricity and motions in my body and mind at this day.

Things were completely ENORMOUS here.

It was the usual birthday-celebration treat for us both.

It was his second friendly Birthday celebration year with me.

I told myself to give it a try, anyway it was a deal movie for this year, and besides it was his BIRTHDAY.

I told myself to take things easy, to manage my thoughts well and get on my feet fairly.

I told myself to hold back any emotional outbreak that may lead to the past.

And lastly, I told myself that I will do this just because I will be leaving soon.

And that things will never be complicated on his life anymore.

At the end of the day, I was wrong.
I was completely compelled and may be drunk-ed by my mere illusions.
I was again, mesmerize of his being and his other side.
Leading my blood and veins to explode.
And holding back went difficult, unsustainable.
I just convince myself that "just this night, just this night".
And tomorrow will mean usual and common again.

The next day, I wake up realizing I was completely bound in recognizing my torn-ed feelings over him again.

Fave of all

Probably my favorite movie for this 2011 year.
I thought I will never get to have another glimpse of him at movie dates anymore.
Finally, I told myself I'm completely and undeniable falling for him.

 
 VERY VERY GORGEOUS THOR!!

 Thor: Yes. If you take me there now, I'll tell you everything you wish to know.
Jane Foster: Everything?
Thor: Yes. All the answers you seek will be yours, once I reclaim Mjöllnir.
Darcy Lewis: Meowmeow? What's Meowmeo?

 

Thor: So earth is lost to us?
Heimdall: No. There is always hope.
Thor: Can you see her?
Heimdall: Yes.
[we see as Jane, Erik and Darcy as they get ready to out on one of their field research]
Thor: How is she?
Heimdall: She searches for you.

But days paced swiftly.
It was a feeling of did-I-do-something-wrong kinda thing.
No words, texts nor movie date came through.
It was an easy form of breaking me to pieces.
I kept asking myself if I did something impulsive that drive him away.
At this point, I thought it was some mutual thing we have.
But I guess I just assumed a lot.


Months went by, he started avoiding me.
I told myself to give it a last shot at the Breaking dawn movie.
If he said no, I lost him.
And I will start letting him go.
Eventually forget him.


He said no.
It was a wake up call.
It was a hard ring of bell in my ears.
It was excruciating.
It was difficult.
But it was insignificant.
Inappropriate for me to feel. 
And yet at the end of the day I realize I was hurt over something unconventional.
It was reading-between-the-line thing for me.
He don't like me, never going to like me.

resident evil

This part came after the ending - showing the next part of the sequel.

How I love zombies!!

The evil villain with the beautiful eyes

The last movie during my days at the company.
It also meant last dates, last going outs, last times with him.

The Dreamer

love is love, you can't always help who you fall in LOVE with..


The second movie went "whoa he went out with me again!!"
Things were like a little close here.
The movie SALT.

The Initiation

You are sweet.
In your own simple ways..
You are reserved.
Reserved just for the ones you love.

The first time we ever went out for a movie, you don't seem too caring.
You open yourself up but not wide enough for people to come inside you.
But I was lucky to see both sides.

You are just so real.
Funny, caring and conservative one.

I just can help but smile every time I think about you
or even when writing these stuff about you.
Maybe that's just how love works.
It penetrates you.
It gives positive vibes even on your dullest moments.

Dreams feel real while we're in them. It's only when we wake up that we realize something was actually strange. 

Never recreate from your memory. Always imagine new places! 

That many dreams within dreams is too unstable! 

I think positive emotion trumps negative emotion every time.

The EPIC TOTEM.

It's a small object, potentially heavy, something you can have on you all the time.

this is a loaded die.

Love is like gravity. It pulls you to places you don't seem to know, keeping you breathless for quite some time and yet it'll bring you back standing on the ground to grasp for yourself.

Love is like the wind.
Love is endless.
Love wakes you, when you're blinded.
Love stops you, when it's too much.

I miss you more than I can bear.

Ariadne: Why is it so important to dream? 
Cobb: Because, in my dreams we are together. 

First meetings

The first times were the crazy ones.

The most unimaginative encounters.

The fugitive approach.

I can't forget the way you stare at me.

One evening - well it seemed always evening because the building has no power - after office, of course with friends and staffs, Mishi my dear friend stopped by the comfort room and we started talking with Sarah and Jayson then silence came and you stare at me so hard when I was leaning on the wall and you put your hand on the wall to stare even closer. It was like I just wanted to melt on my place that time, good thing Mishi went out and we all moved down then.

and of course, care of my love.

Some one said this is where it all started, I wanted to tell him "What started?".

Nothing started because it will mean it'll end.

Nothing started from this point because nothing will end in some parts.

We had met before, may be in my dreams, in a street we both passed by,

or maybe in our lives before this.

Nothing meant strange for me now, everything seems familiar.

Like maybe some where in my past we fallen deeply in love with each other.

And that we are just continuing those times here.